Life Life How did I get Life

Life, I mean is it really worth livin? Don't hate me shortie wake me. The meds I'm on will make the feds come quick. You all heard it before is life worth livin should I blast myself? When you sit down and think of all the things you could be doin besides dwellin on the bad things that have happened you will see your life has been blessed from jump street like straight up. Your first day you were born you weren't breathin. God kick started them lungs you fillin with chemicals from the cigs and weed. But you never thought about it like that. Some people would kill to see yet you tryna kill yourself so people won't see you. In my life I've had people die on me from natural causes but never someone tryin to commit suicide. Guess the sayin is true never say never. One of my close friends, who I respect enough to keep his name secret, flirted with death or so we believed. For everyone involved it wasn't fair. Suicide is nothin to play with. I can't say that I've never thought about how life would be without me but god has a way of showin you your worth sometimesyou have to open your eyes and see what is in front of you. Live love laugh three things you should keep in mind when things seem to be goin wrong look at the bigger picture. Greater is he that is in me than that is in the world. You are a child of god if you feel you have nothin to live for live for him givin his only son up for you to even have a chance to think about takin your life. We only get one chance to live, make the best of it.

Julian Phillips

For Better or For Worse

From a young age I had to learn the hard way, you can fold and bend but you should never brake. At the age of 2 I was mature for my age. I would walk with my moms and ask her questions about my father like why they not together and when would they get married again. Tough love is what I got out of my dad not seeing me but it made me stronger, it made me who I am today. But with all that said, who am I to be mad about some shit I couldn't prevent? I mean the rift between my moms and dad started way before I was born, it didn't help none that my dad was and is brown skin and I came out yellow as a sunflower. I guess you cant see yourself in a persons shoes until you have to wear them. But lets fast forward to almost 20 years later. Can you see a young you now? I mean you cant say I don't exist to you and believe that, can you? I cant say that if i were him I would do this and that this way and not let this and that happen cause things happen for a reason but I can say my child will know his father will never leave him or her EVER and that I love them more than anything in the world. So next time before you judge me walk in my shoes you probably couldn't handle the things that seem minute to me.

Julian